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ti symvainei telika?mhpws den hrtha edw gia na kanw ton kosmo kalutero?mhpws irtha edw ontws g na ponaw apla??mhpws den shmainw tipota?giati omws ola auta?den ine krima?na ehei simiourgithei enas anthrwpos kai meta apo liga hronia na arhisei na xehnaei oti zei?molis stamathsei na einai glykoulhs kai zouzouniarhs opws einai kathe mwro allwste,na tn hrisimopoioun les kai einai ena saki patates?htes evala ta klammata...gia enan polu asheto logo.gia kapoio logo pou den eprepe na stenahwrithw alla na tsantistw kai na mn antidrasw kan.antitheta arhisa na klaiw.kai eiha polu kairo na klapsw etc....h alitheia einai oti xespasa.alla meta apo ligo...bgikan allla pragmatasthn epifaneia.arhisa na niwthw tosi bathia dystihia pou den mporousa na stamathsw...rhiza na fwnazw stn pappou m na me parei mazi tou.na paw na tn dw.arhisa na tn fantazomai xana kai auto me ekane na thelw na paw olo kai pio konta t....meta mphke o pateras m st dwmatio.arhize na m fwnazei na stamathsw na tn tromazw kai me travage....thymamai mia frasi tou"twra tha tromaxw egw esena.den tha tromazeis mono ec emena"...fovomoun toso polu akouga kai apo pisw thn mhtera m na fwnazei na me afhsei..alla autos tipota.prospathousa na krathithw stn thesi m.alla me petaxe katw ap to krebbati kai me esyre st mpanio.mpika stn ntouziera ekleisa thn kourtina kai kathisa katw elpizontas bathia mesa m pws den tha me vrei ekei...alla sthn epifaneia hxera oti se liga deuterolepta tha anoixei h kourtina kai tha arhizei na me hastoukizei....etc k egine.eklaiga akoma pio poli hwris na mporw na to elexw..ekana emeto kai den mporousa na anasanw..gia mia stigmi arhisa na elpizw oti twra feugw.alla tipota...dystihws ime akoma edw..piga mesa st dwmatio m ekatsa se mia gwnia evala mprosta m ena maxilari kai prospathisa na iremisw...mega lathos...gt ki ekei me vrike h mana m.kai arhise na m leei diafores m**sapla ekatsa kai thn akousa hwris na tis ferw antirrisi s oti m elege....apla prospathousa na tis dwsw na katalabei oti olo auto emena me kanei heirotera..kia uti ekei...tipota...pali erihne to ftaiximo panw m gt den ts eiha milisei..kai pws na ts milisw otan me antimetwpizoun etc?telospantwn..afou evrisa thn aderfh m kai halasa polla pragmata mesa st spiti epesa kai koimithika...den thymamai t oneira m.to heiroero omws irthe simera...pou ekanan oloi san na mn eihe ginei tipota...san na itan ola fysiologika to proigoumeno vrady.san na mn ponesa katholou..oute egw oute autoi....esteila kai mnm stn giatro m g na m kleisei ena rantevou gia na tn dw..alla oute autos m apanthse....kai to komikotragiko ths ypothesis xerete poio ine?oti milaw se mia othoni ypologisti kai niwthw entaxei.den ehw kapoion pou mporw na t milisw re gamwto....ts ehw hasei olous..kai fovamai...den mporw na autoktonisw.pleon den antehw tn pono....xerw ki allous tropous pou den ehounkatholou pono ap oti lene kai pou ine shetika euharistoi..alla kai pali psilofovamai....ime 17 hronwn pleon.s auhn thn koinothta ime gyrw st 2 hronioa nomizw....kai oti ehw to ehw 5 hronia....apo ta 12 m..mikro paidaki....kai twra...olokliri gynaika pia...moni ths...den ine krima?prospathw na thymithw ta paidika m hronia kai den mporw na thymithw tipota euharisto......gt????