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eimai 20 xronwn kai sas grafw dioti den antexw thn katastash pou exw afhsei ton eafto mou na epelthei.Prwtou sas eksighsw ti akrivws mou simvainei tha hthela na shmeiwsw oti sto parelthon(prin apo 2 xronia) exw ipostei agxwdhs diataraxh opou thn kseperasa dixws farmakeftikh agwgh kai psixothrapeia dioti hmoun arnhtikh ws pros ayto.Epishs tha hthela na anaferw oti o aderfos mou pasxei apo oksia psixwtikh sindromh kai ayth th stigmh noshlevetai se klinikh.To gegonos ayto mou dhmiourghse prosfata agxos kai gia ton idio mou ton eafto,an dhladh mporw na pathw kai egw kati analogo h oti kai akoma an eimai kai egw "trelh"!Ola ksekinhsan prin apo peripou 20 meres enw hmoun gia diakopes sthn idieterh patrida mou thn krhth.Ksafnika enw vriskomoun sto kafeneio tou theiou arxise h kardia mou na xtipa dinata ta podia mou na tremoun ta xeria na idrwnoun kai na exw thn aisthish oti vriskomai ektoos eaytou.To gegonos ayto me evale se skepseis:mhpws eimai trelh?giati to epatha ayto?mhpos oi alloi me theoroun trelh?prosfata episkefthka psixiatro o opoios me diavevaiwse oti den eimai "trelh" kai exw arxisei nomizw na to pistevw.Alla akoma niwthw oti meta apo afto to simvan den eimai o eaftos mou.Niwthw mia aforhth piesh kathe fora pou vriskomai me alla atoma,opoia k an einai ayta,kai h piesh ayth enteinetai otan paw na milhsw.Parathrw ton eafto mou kai diapistwnw oti exei diataraxthei o eirmos ths skepshs mou tou logou mou,oti exei allaksei to yfos mou oti kanw mhxanikes kinhseis.Niwthw oti tha pw h tha kanw kati kai oi alloi tha katalavoun oti kati mou simvainei me apotelesma kathe fora pou vgainw na mhn pernaw kala kai na eimai xamenh ston kosmo mou.Ayto pou pragmatika thelw ayto to diasthma einai na kleistw sto spiti mou kai na mhn vlepw kanena alla piezw ton eafto mou na vgei prokeimenou na mporesw na antimetwpisw ayto pou mou simvaiinei.Alla kathe fora pou vlepw oti den ta katafera na eimai o eaytos mou;h aneth vassilia pou hmoun apogohtevomai olo kai perissotero.Prin mou simvei ayto na shmeiwsw oti ta teleftaia 2 xronia pou perasa s allh polh logw spoudwn mou etixan polles diskolies stis opoies mporesa na antapekselthw me epitixia kai na mhn me paroun apo katw.Eixa anaptiksei ena filosofiko tropo skepshs o opoios me voithouse na mhn ptooume se oti kai an mou tixaine.Genikotera eimai eswstrefhs kai egwistria kai den dexomoun na ekswterikevw tis adinamies mou stous allous kai protimousa na tis diaxeirizomai kai na tis epilyw monh mou.Olo ayto me ekane na niwthw dinath gia ton eafto mou kai gia th zwh mou.Pleon meta apo ayto pou sinevh kai pou sinexizei na mou simvainei niwthw oti exasa ton eafto mou oti pleon mporei na me elegksei aytos kai oxi egw ekeinon.Exw xasei th xara mou kai aisthanomai oti den eimai ena fisiologiko atomo tis hlikias mou,giati kaka ta psemata ayto den simvainei se enan fysiologiko anthrwpo alla s ena atomo pou pasxei apo "psixologika provlimata" gegonos pou gia thn eyhpolipth koinwnia pou zoume shmainei"trelos"!!!!!Kai ayto to vlepw kai to parathrw apo ton tropo pou antimetwpizoun ton aderfo mou o perigyros.En pasei periptwsh tha hthela na sas rwthsw pos tha mporousa na me voithisw na vgw apo aythn thn katastash pou vriskomai ayth th stigmh????kai an kataferw kai to kseperasw tha mou ksanasimvei?den mporw na siniparksw me ayto to agxos me ayton ton eayto oute me th skepsh oti ayto tha anakiklwnetai.

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